Lost
We found out today that my husband didn't get the job at his school. He is looking into other options, although it's a dry year for music positions in our area, so we don't know what's going to happen. We are reeling from the blow. I just don't know what to say. I think now is going to be the time for me to finally send my camera in to Canon for a repair and take some time off from the blog for a while. I'm sure that I will come back to it when the stress level goes down; right now just dealing with daily life feels really hard. The children still have to be fed and cared for no matter what stress we're experiencing. If you would like me to notify you when I return to my blog, please leave a comment and I'll add you to an email list. You're also welcome to email me at the email address listed in my sidebar, as well. Thank you, and goodbye for now. I know I'll be back ... I don't think I can really stay away all that long. ;)
i hope you find restoration soon. i think i understand your feelings about the day-to-day; it can be exhausting AND exhilirating from one minute to the next (even in the same minute!), and that roller-coaster is enough to wear me out some days. there is an opportunity mixed in here somewhere, and i'm confident that it will be discovered. you'll probably hear that a lot (the "opportunity" comment), and it might seem vague or superficial, but from what i've read on your blog, you are open and won't miss the gem that is waiting.
love + peace
Posted by: annri | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 11:30 AM
I'm so sad for you. There will be difficult times for you and your husband and you will need to be courageous. In my experience when one door closes another one opens somewhere. Take care of yourself and your beautiful family and remember that you have made friends all over the world who are thinking of you and sending you love until you have found that open door.
AliceC
Posted by: alice | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 11:52 AM
So sorry to hear your news. I think it shakes a fundamental need to provide for our families when work is uncertain but I'm sure that ther will be other opportunities for him. Be strong
Posted by: Jo | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 12:01 PM
So sorry to hear the bad news. Look into those children's faces and know that everything will be OK again soon!
Posted by: Beth H | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 12:26 PM
Oh, honey- Tell him I'm so sorry. That REALLY sucks.
Hang in there. Surely something great will come along. You're smart, capable and strong people. And you deserve only the best.
This is when the urge to drive over with a pie and give you a big hug kicks in. I wish I could. At least know I'm thinking about your sweet family and I'll miss you. Take your time, though.
p.s. If you ever need to take a little road trip to get away, you know how to find us.
Posted by: Alicia A. | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 01:49 PM
Oh no, I'm so sorry for this bad news. But I really do believe in my heart that these things happen for a reason - to make way for new possibilities.
I'll be hoping for you and waiting for you. ((Hugs))
Posted by: patience | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 03:55 PM
not a good feeling, i know. good luck with big decisions.
hugs to your fam!
Posted by: kirsten | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 05:52 PM
I have been peeking in here from time to time for a few weeks. We too just found out my husband did not get a job that would have dramatically improved the quality of our life. I will think of you as we struggle with similar circumstances. Peace to you.
Posted by: Peggy | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 06:42 PM
I love you blog, please return soon! We've had ups and downs too and job losses. One of my friends has a great saying when filtering through and sorting the happenings of life. "Does it effect the eternal?"
Praying for you,
Hannah
Posted by: Hananh | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 08:14 PM
sorry...i do understand a major life change and having to still do the day to day and continue loving each other.
praying for your family
Posted by: Lori | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 09:05 PM
With everyone else, my heart goes out to you during a stressful time. It doesn't seem quite fair to still have to deal with laundry and sticky floors when there's so much else going on.
My prayers are with you and your family.
Posted by: Becca | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 09:19 PM
oh grace. i am so sorry to hear about the hard times that are upon you and your family. i'd like to send you a little something that i found by the lake last week -- a touchstone of sorts - if you're up for a little gift, please send your address along.
wishing you and yours well through this transition, sarah
Posted by: sarah | Friday, May 11, 2007 at 10:20 PM
Grace, so sorry to hear your news. Oh, music is wonderful but oh-so-stressful when it comes to actually making a living doing it. We feel for you both. Please put me on your list--I'll miss peaking in on your blog every day or so. Much love and peace to you all-
Posted by: sarah | Saturday, May 12, 2007 at 01:09 PM
oh my how sad and difficult for you right now. many blessings to your family, take all the time needed, we'll be here to support your return. peace.
heather
Posted by: heather | Saturday, May 12, 2007 at 02:33 PM
wishing you all the best, please let me know when you're back.
Posted by: Péitseoga | Sunday, May 13, 2007 at 04:43 AM
Praying for you that God blesses your beautiful family with something wonderful!
Posted by: Tracy Dunne | Sunday, May 13, 2007 at 05:46 AM
will be praying for your family...and for new job opportunities.
Posted by: amandajean | Sunday, May 13, 2007 at 07:45 AM
Oh, Grace, I feel so sorry for you to hear about the news. I hope you find the strenght to come back soon! My candle still burning for you!
A lot off warm feelings from Belgium!
Posted by: mamaHeidi | Sunday, May 13, 2007 at 12:10 PM
Dear Friend, wishing you lots and lots of positive thoughts.
I'm sure something wonderfull will turn up for you and your husband, have faith. My thoughts are with you and your candle is still burning.
Big hug
(((((())))))
Posted by: ilse | Sunday, May 13, 2007 at 01:18 PM
Oh, I am so sorry to hear of the outcome. I'm in a similar form of limbo, with lives and emotions counting on outcomes, and I know the kind of toll it takes on one's energy level. Taking a break is understandable but I truly will miss seeing your beautiful pictures and reading your heartfelt words. Do take care of yourself whilst tending to your family...
Please add my name to the email list for when you feel up to sharing again. My thoughts are with you & your family.
Posted by: Amber | Sunday, May 13, 2007 at 07:50 PM
six years ago my husband lost his job. it was a most trying time - but it also brought us closer together as a family, and helped us to figure out what was most important in our lives. and then, once that door closed, a marvelous window opened that led to wonders we never could have imagined.
i'm wishing for a widow to open for your family. i know it will - i hope it happens soon.
looking forward to your return...
Posted by: emily | Monday, May 14, 2007 at 09:33 AM
Grace, I know how hard it is to be strong and optimistic when faced with a blow like this. I'm sorry he didn't get the job..I am sorry for what you're feeling right now. I've been in that spot and it's scary. Please know my prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. They truly are.
Posted by: Ingrid | Monday, May 14, 2007 at 01:10 PM
Grace, I know how hard it is to be strong and optimistic when faced with a blow like this. I'm sorry he didn't get the job..I am sorry for what you're feeling right now. I've been in that spot and it's scary. Please know my prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. They truly are.
Posted by: Ingrid | Monday, May 14, 2007 at 01:10 PM
I'm so sorry Grace. You will be in our prayers.
And yes, let me know when you come back. :)
Posted by: Jennifer | Tuesday, May 15, 2007 at 07:54 AM
I'm so sorry Grace, I truly hope everything will work out for you and your family. We have seen these times in our family on more occasions than I care to recollect. Drink lots of green tea to keep the toxic feelings flowing. Hugs & prayers to you all.
Posted by: tamara | Tuesday, May 15, 2007 at 12:17 PM
so sorry for your situation and the stress it is bringing your family. will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers as you look for that window to open. it will.
be well & we'll be here when you return.
Posted by: jennifer | Tuesday, May 15, 2007 at 08:24 PM
Haven't commented until now because I am at a loss for words. I'm very sorry and I'm here for you. Please let me know if you need anything at all.
Love and hugs to you all!
C wants to send Elle a big love! He continues to ask about her every day!
Posted by: Mohda | Wednesday, May 16, 2007 at 03:09 PM
I'm so sorry for you!
Hope you'll be back real soon with good news!!
Posted by: Mirre | Wednesday, May 16, 2007 at 03:55 PM
I hope you can find some restorative peace in this stressful time. I've been in those shoes and it can be very overwhelming. Just keep breathing, that's the key. Please do let me know when you're back again.
Posted by: Cottage Magpie | Wednesday, May 16, 2007 at 05:43 PM
I haven't been by for some time. You are obviously hit really hard by this bad news. I know that being in the midst of a struggle that seems to offer no solution in sight is so difficult. It really is an opportunity for new doors, change, opportunity and growth. Peace to all of you.
Posted by: Mae | Sunday, May 20, 2007 at 02:58 PM
so sorry to hear about the job. that's just no good. but you are sheltered under the wings, hidden in the cleft of the rock, cared for and loved. like a mama hen gathers her chicks.
there's a Grace size whole in my days! we miss you.
Posted by: kort | Monday, May 21, 2007 at 10:25 PM